Dear Diary :)

I was just asking myself questions… inside my lifetime what makes me someone else? How? What I got? intangible but making the differences between the others and me? questions in sentence needs answers in sentences.

So, Focus!

Feelings… Emotions… cant ignore, cant hide, cant be without… they are the reason of all my acts. dont matter how hard sometimes but living under the influence is what I do. So have to make a peace with every each of them. Anger, sadness, happiness, love… Never be ashamed, never be regret… always living them in deeps. makes me explore myself. They define me.

Thoughts… makes me grow, makes me alive. In every second theres billions of them inside the head. Empty brain doesnt exist. Everything in my mind dancing. Full of thoughts… Cant stop. Sure, I cant have ideas about all subjects in the world but why should I pull back myself to think what is sensible in my opinion in any subject. I could wrong but must open to learn the true one. generate in itself. tree of thoughts! Always gonna grow till I die.

Ambitions… makes to reach success. its not working on me when I try to make many things. Generally I fling away… when it works I am taking big steps for my life. Self-confidence grows with its appearence. I always live it inside. Cant harm anybody but myself. its the key to realize myself and everything i want.

Cries… need to relax sometimes by doing it. When I see someone crying never try to stop him or her. its pure action. I believe it makes all of us purify.

Happenings… Never wanna quess what is going to be next in my life. I love suprises. Things mostly happened suddenly in my life. there is no plan.

Expectations.. I dont need them. Nobody is. Cause its harmful. it makes a way to unhappiness. But yes, do it sometimes. No lie. Things cant go on as I want. Things affected from every conditions in life. When I feel it just start to infusion myself to run away! Try it but not always works. Just a human being.

Disappointments… Maybe it has much sadness much anger inside of it. and also much pain, much depression. its like I am a person who is unconscious and after living all this actions I just sober up! makes me awake, makes me understand. gives me some kind of inspiration to make things better.

Dreams… Never give up from them.. they are excitements of a little child. makes me believer, free, happy, childish, alive. they are always living with me in every second. Like the aims that gives my life meaning. band together with everything about me and give a big force to live for.

Smiles… its an amazing thing when someone smile at me. its really important for me. I really love people who smiles beautiful. always try to smile even I feel bad… I believe that makes me strong… Probably if I am separating humans from one way this is the only value I use.

Hopes… it is like waiting for the sun. waiting quietly with all goodwill. after all free mind things like you need a rest. Hope is a home…

Gonna focus to live them all with peace! Hallelujah 🙂